[name deleted],
What a neat story and congratulation on such a rich history that you have started. I sure hope you have written this down somewhere so that the 3rd, 4th.10th generation know the trials and tribulations you went through to hold to the Iron Rod. I know that has made a difference in my life. I sometimes think that I can't handle another Sunday when all I did was put on a dress and referee a pew and then have no one sit by me in RS..why go? Well, the story of my mother driving 13 miles by horse and sleigh to play the organ and piano in meetings she wasn't even supposed to be at (priesthood and RS etc) come to mind. The story of my great-great-grandmother praying that missionaries would come by her humble home so she could have a priesthood blessing to cure a sore breast-we now know it was breast cancer that they healed-and having them appear the next day. (Her husband was off tending to business-cattle or doctoring--in another part of the county. She was healed immediately, and the missionaries even spent the day cutting and chopping wood because her oldest son (13 or 14) was down with "chills and a fever." I think of the story of them crossing the plains and walking most of the way in stocking feet.
How can I let that faith and strength be for naught? How can I let all the hard work I had done go for naught? If they thought so much about the gospel to go through the trials and tribulations they did, then surely I can hang on one more sacrament meeting, one more Family Fight-I mean Home Evening. I can endure because my trials are nothing like theirs. And likewise my trials will be some that my kids will be able to look back on when their faith waivers and say, "but if mom could do it.." At least that is my hope.
I think this is where the promise of hearts turning come into play. This is where my heart is soften towards them, I start to love them and therefore would do nothing to hurt them and I know because I have a testimony that turning away from the truth and the light would hurt them so much. I also just plain have a testimony of the gospel, but it helps to also have that other tangent holding my testimony strong.
(from another post)
In Sunday School today we read about Jeremiah and how he was foreordained to do what he was doing (even though few listened to him). I think many of us are foreordained to do something we just might not know it. I also think that many who were foreordained fell short of the mark and didn't do it. How sad. I have yet to have it backed up by gospel doctrine and it doesn't need to be because it is the "gospel according to Doreen" but I know in my Patriarchal Blessing I've been given the chance to prove myself worth of blessing "foreordained" in the pre-existence.
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